Another Insomnia Night (Again)

She feels like she begin to lose her passion again...

feels like nothing can bring her to her truth happiness

everything maybe wasn't stay for long time..

because everything changes :(

and she has to know..

her passions too..

sometimes she always hears and feels, that people around her said that she had pushed herself too hard..
To making others happy, and leaving her happiness behind..

Maybe she just a clown that always makes and dress up colourfully to make people happy..

But sometimes you must know that clown will be angry, sad, and lonely too..

Sometimes she has to show her true feeling too.. she couldn’t always popping up her three balls without fall down..

But, finally , her sucks feelings only make her lost her way and everybody around her..

Was it her fault?

Maybe that people weren’t deserved to spend their time with her..

She’s not the perfect one, but she always try to be herself and showed herself in the perfect way..

She’s cheerful and sweet, but that’s not mean that she will always stay happy forever..

She is dodol, but she always say it to the other people, that’s because she's afraid to become the only one dodol in this world…

She always makes her stupid decisions, and end up with push herself too hard.. again and again..

"ughh... please nanaa..

stop this STUPID THOUGHS.."

However..

She want to create her new passion AGAIN,

And She will always try to feel good !!!

This insomnia maybe will happen at my other nights, but this bad though will only stop until here, because I’ll fill my next insomnia night with my new PASSION

Come, come here..

I just wanna be wiser and free of desires 

:)

happy.

is.

easy.

right ?

^^

CONFESSION "Love Has No Reason?"

I always believe in this statement until i meet you..

Suddenly you make me change my mind..

why did i crazy in love with you??

i can make such a million of reason..

i fall in love with you...

with your talents,

with your silliness,

with your unfunny-smile,

with your common voice,

i fall in love with you..

and i do think some girls 

maybe will adore you with the same reasons..

so..

what's special in my feeling, hey you?

from my-a million reasons-to loving you..

slowly..

i found nothing special from you..

you're just same with the others..

but, just don't know why.. 

this feeling won't go away..

my heart decides it best, 

to keep your everything deep inside it..

result?

Hi.. It's me.. Nana..

And i love YOU..

and i want to know everything from you,

and i want to share my everything with you,

and i hope i can spend my time longer with you,

because it just felt comfort

if u're here.. around me.. :)

and i'm still waiting here, waiting this world to collates your feeling with mine....

is it possible?

why not?

i believe in 'The Secret'

you.. 

or someone better for my life :)

~ nanana ~

BELATED BIRTHDAY FOR NANA ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!

it have been so long time since the first time

i stepped into this world

parents were welcoming me so much

laughing at my cry

and

i don't know

for what i've born..

Now..

On my 19 th birthday..

i just wanna say

GOODBYE to my 18 th

that brings me a lot of fun..

interest moments, and thankful situations..

Now.

On my 19 th birthday..

i just wanna say

WELCOME 19!! :))

such a turtle goes to the ocean

i think i'm stepping into

readiness

to swim in your large hug of deep water

then i can feel

how a little turtle can feel her freedom

and handle her freedom by herself

no guilty anymore..

no regret anymore..

because i'm stepping into a new page of my life..

again

and

again.

i just hope this time will be better

and i can be a candle for people in my life..

candle in the birthday cake

should not be blown

but just let it shine

in the heart ^^

then..

allow me to sing a song for myself..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANAAA..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANAAAA..

WISH U ALL DE BEST

AND U'LL ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST ~

^______^

*THAT'S WHY I LOVE MYSELF SOOO MUCH**